random thinking

"If smiling doesn't necessarily mean that you're happy, can frowning
also mean that you're not really sad?"

Can frowning, just like smiling, only be one's way of making others curious about what they really think?

Do people really mean it when they frown? Because I do know they do not always mean it when they smile.

Are expressions a good basis on how the person really feels, or what he/she really thinks?

Do these facial movements really say much about a person? And that person's real emotions?

Oh well. Don't mind me. This is just one of my many silly thoughts.

A quote to ponder on:

"Usefulness of an opinion is itself a matter of opinion." --John Stuart Mill
The point of this entry:


Opinions I write in my blog may come off as one of my many rants, or one of the many things I think about that also make you think.

Bottomline is, it's up to you to either see my entries in a negative or a positive way. All I know is that they're useful to me :)

the ugly truth


Ever since, I've always tried to be idealistic when it comes to dealing with other people. I've always believed that the key for people to stay with you is to be good to them, but then later on I realized that this is not always the case. At times, no matter how sucky your attitude is, when you've got the power, the money, the connections, the charm and the knowledge, you've got them all under you because they still benefit from it in a way.

In a world like the one we're living in right now, sometimes it's but inevitable to forget your morals for you to survive not that i'm saying it's acceptable, but it's a reality and I should not necessarily embrace and accept it but at least try to understand.

it's been a while



The early days of a new relationship are exciting indeed. You find someone who makes you feel special and who is fun to be around. Over time, though, as the two of you become more familiar with each other it's easy to fall into the same old routine. When this happens you may start to feel as if you are being taken for granted.

If you have ever taken your significant other for granted then it will absolutely 100 percent negatively affect your relationship. If you think about it for a moment, you can say that no one likes to be taken for granted and very few people in their right mind will put up with it.

The sense of being taken for granted usually doesn't just appear overnight. It kind of creeps up on you, a little at a time, until eventually you start to notice that something about the relationship is different.

Nothing makes people feel better than that wonderful feeling of being appreciated and valued. Can you remember back when you met your other half and how absolutely wonderful it was? There was a feeling of mutual admiration and affection. We said things to each other like, "It's so nice to hear from you" or "thanks for calling". Do you remember spending what seemed like hours, (but it didn't matter). Why do we lose all of that?

Here are some of the telltale signs that he may be taking you for granted:

• He assumes you'll always be there: This one can be subtle. Do they tend to ignore you or your phone calls when he is around his friends? Do they turn to you when they need something but push you away when you need something? Are they not as affectionate as they used to be?
• He forget to tell you things: Everybody forgets things now and then, but if it's a pattern there may be more to it. Does he accept invitations for parties without telling you? Does he say he'll go somewhere with you and at the last minute remember that he has another commitment? Does he forget to let you know he'll be late?
• He doesn't care what you do: Does he care where you are and what you are doing if he doesn't hear from you? Does he say nothing when you appear for the first time with a new haircut or a new outfit? Do you ever get the feeling that you could walk out of his life and wouldn't realise till next week that you're gone?

Point of this entry. We broke up, I just couldn't do it anymore. I felt like it was the right thing to do, I just didn't "feel it" anymore. I just waited too long for him to "change", that I ended up forgetting about my own happiness, I finally realized that there's more to life out there, rather than waiting and wallowing around hoping for him to change. It would have been our three years tomorrow, but you know what I'm not upset about the fact that I broke it off, I'm just "nanghihinayang" about the fact that he let me slip away..

Millions of fans across the globe watched the televised memorial for Michael Jackson on July 7, 2009, there were plenty of the trappings of celebrity and fame.

There was the golden casket, the tributes from the rich and famous, the overflowing crowds, the songs sung by the megastars, such as Mariah Carey, Stevie Wonder, Usher and Human Nature.

But it was the small moments in the service that were the most touching.

There was his brother, Marlon, talking about watching "The Three Stooges" with Jackson after school before being hustled off to a recording studio.

Magic joked about a time when he caught Jackson eating Kentucky Fried Chicken.

There was Brooke Shields, describing how she and Jackson, as kids, sneaked into Elizabeth Taylor's bedroom to see her wedding gown.

Shields recalled how Jackson's favorite song was an old-fashioned one, "Smile," written by Charlie Chaplin, who himself knew the bitter price of worldwide fame.

Then there was perhaps the saddest, most heartbreaking moment of all, when Jackson's young daughter, Paris, told the world through her tears that Jackson "Ever since I was born, daddy has been the best father you could ever imagine. And I just wanted to say I love him so much."

"Maybe now, Michael, they will leave you alone," Jackson's brother Marlon had said moments before Paris' brief, tragic moment at center stage. One after another,the King of Pop's loved ones stepped forward to make their case for Jackson as a misunderstood, harmless sweetheart who wanted only to heal the world.

"Wasn't nothing strange about your daddy," Reverend Al Sharpton told Paris and her two brothers, who were seated in the front row. "It was strange what your daddy had to deal with."

I just finished watching Michael Jackson's Memorial Service a few minutes ago, and Oh my God I have never, ever, ever been emotional over any celebrity's death.

Hindi ako showbiz, at lalong hindi ako yung " fan" type. In fact I was never really a die hard fan of Michael Jackson, but I do believe that he is one of the best entertainers we have ever had. Listening to his songs and watching his video clips now gives me goosebumps, he is often imitated but never duplicated. I am proud to have had the opportunity to listen and watch how he shared his music to the world, I may have not known him personally but I am happy to be born in the Era where there was once a Michael Jackson.

A Legend

ironic

Having had 2 hours of sleep last night, I'm very surprised that I'm still able to keep my eyes open right now, despite the fact that I feel like a walking zombie nevertheless I'm still up.

I don't really know how to start this entry to be quite honest, reason being is that I've had two bad days in a row. So should I talk about yesterday, or today first? Or perhaps should I talk about both, or should I just talk about today? Hmm..

You see, I'm generally emotionally weak. May it be about friendships, lovelife, life or even work problems. I just don't cope well I guess. I tend to be very sensitive, a worrier and even a cry baby.

Okay if you''re reading this your probably confused as to what is going on with me. Cut long story short I had a bad day at work today. I was called into a meeting with the owner along with our Floor manager today and trust me when this happens, everyone at work knows that it's not a good thing. When you get taken out from the shop and into the coffee shop from across the road, everyone knows that its either, A your getting fired or B your in BIG trouble.

Basically, I was blamed for something that other staff members are also responsible for in the shop. On the other hand, the other staff members who were also involved didn't even hear a word from the owner. Bottom line, I copped all the shit and the blame. However for some strange reason, it has been obvious that the owner hasn't really been fond of me since Day 1. I don't know I guess people have their favourites. I'm much closer to my Store Manager and Assistant Store Manager, and they both have admitted to me that I am their "favorite", and trust me I feel it too.

No matter how much my Managers stood up for me today, (because clearly it wasn't my fault), the owner still managed to argue her way in. So I was just quiet throughout the whole meeting, then stupid me just started bawling my eyes out all of a sudden. It's not the fact that I was being told off, it's the fact that I work my ass off at her shop and she never sees it. I am the only one who ever fkn cleans and do overtime there and even come in on my day off to catch up on my client's contracts, yet somehow she just loves blaming me whenever things would go wrong in the shop.

So she handed me a First and Final Warning Letter today, stating that my performance will be closely monitored, and if there is no improvement in a couple of days she will have to dismiss me. In contrast, both my Managers were very upset too, because they know that what happened was really unfair. They both told me that the owner was just being a fkn bitch, and she's like a lion who picks on the weakest link. Yes yes, everyone knows I am passive and weak, even my workfriends. Whenever someone asks me for a favor, I find it very difficult to say no, hence I always do what is being asked of me.

As soon as the meeting ended, I couldn't stop crying, take not I wasn't crying quietly. You know the feeling when you're so upset, then your heart literally starts hurting? So my manager took me out of the shop to calm me down. She bought me a coffee and offered me cigarettes to calm me down. I wasn't upset because I got told off, it's not about that. It's about the fact that I try so hard, yet in the end it's as if I had not exerted any effort at all. What's the use? Feeling ko parang kahit anong gawin ko, at the end hindi parin maganda ang outcome. Yung parang despite all the effort you put in, para sa kanila wala parin kasi hindi nila na a-appreciate. So sabi nga nila, kung ayaw huwag na pilitin I guess.

Yes I'm upset, I have been crying all day, I feel like shit dahil masama ang loob ko. I guess I'm gonna go to bed with a heavy heart again tonight...

Hello, and welcome to my blog.
This is my personal blog and the views expressed on these pages are mine alone.
These Terms and Conditions of Use, apply to YOU, when you view, access or otherwise use the blog located at www.krishax.blogspot.com

My thoughts and opinions may change from time to time. I consider this a necessary consequence of having an open mind. This blog is intended to provide a semi-permanent point in time snapshot and manifestation of the various thoughts and imaginations running around my brain, and as such any thoughts and opinions expressed within out-of-date posts may not be the same, nor even similar, to those I may hold today.

Feel free to challenge me, disagree with me, or tell me I’m completely nuts in the comments section of each blog entry, but I reserve the right to delete any comment for any reason whatsoever (abusive, profane, rude, or anonymous comments) – so keep it polite, please. You are not obligated to read, so feel free to leave if you don't like what you see/read.

.
Current Readers

♥ Kayciies . 21 years of age. . BS Nursing Student. . in a relationship. camwhore. movie bum. impatient. insensitive. gullible. procrastinator. passive. happy. childish. lazy. impatient. sensitive. hopeless romantic. unique. coffee addict. music lover. naive. common. random. loud. lazy texter. persistent. annoying. can be bitchy and bitter. quiet. extremely moody. happy-go-lucky. unpredictable. friendly. outgoing. fragile. loved. shy. crazy. sensitive. hated. happy. inlove. hard headed. intimidated. emotional. possesive. hyper-active. childish. paranoid. pessimistic. broken.
Hating people is a waste of time. Manipulating them requires skill and devotion, Life is too short too stay angry. and lastly, I am striving to be a better person, just like everybody else.

September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
September 2008
November 2008
January 2009
February 2009
March 2009
May 2009
June 2009
July 2009
September 2009
October 2009

Mapi
Trixielle.
Ishna.
Kris Jasper.
Apple.
Kuya Mel.
Bianca.
Kuya Bong.
Krisna.
Eloiski.
Alex.
Homer.
Ate Quing and Kuya Rai.
Misha.
Charchar.
Tina.
Mia.
Anino.
Lance.
Chyng.
Acongtatsulok.
Chynx.
Cindy.
Naknak.
Kris.
Saling pusa.
Kryk.
Alea.
RJ.
Axl.
Chickletz.
Ron.
Kuya Zkey.